Personalities

If i may quote one of the most influential fictional characters - Neo.. he said "Everything that has a beginning has an end."

When we begin . We start gathering knowledge . We start to understand the world around us . We form a personality . We stick to that personality . That what makes us Us.

My personality, well thats for me to keep.

There are always people in this world that compliment you . That compliment your personality . We call them friends . We call them best friends . We DONT call them colleagues.

But there comes a certain point of time in everyone's life where their personality is questioned . Some people choose to give in to this massive change .

But i dont believe in that .

I believe that we have spent almost well a lifetime being who we are , becoming personalized , if you may . we need to stick to that .

In geek terms , Would you like your .vimrc file to be lost ? You'd kill yourself ey?

Coming back .. A few changes yes , acceptable . Simply because i also believe that change is a constant process.

Sometimes .. We're just wrong , and we need to change what is wrong with us.

I'm writing this today because i was going thro my pictures and found this:

There is one other person who will share my feeling as i write this post. Right Mr. A14?

Imagine that there were 2 people , close great friends . And then , Enter 3rd person . SO "3" (as we will call this person) completed our 'circle'

Times were always fun with 3 around . All those Pani Puri eat outs . All those terrace conversation and the Behind B block conversations .

There was something about 3 that just got us all \^o^/ and all excited for the smallest of things in the universe :) I still remember the time when we were laughing our asses off for no reason till when we had tears in our eyes.

But then along came person 0 . Person 0 put forth the question to 3's personality .

Sadly , very sadly .. 3 gave in . 3 changed.

No jumps
No bursts of happiness
No Yay
No Hurray
No big smiles
No pani puri's
No LMAO's
well , in the end .. no 3 .

0 changed 3 completely :( And i do hope that 3 is happy .

This post is dedicated to all the good times that me, A14 and 3 had .

I do hope that once more , we get to re-live those experiences.

Dear 3,
I had some of the best times in my life with you and i really wish you hadn't given in to the change , but like i said earlier "Everything that has a beginning, must have an end".


I dont wish bad for you. Never shall I. But i really do hope you're happy with 0.
Sincerely yours,
me + A14.

I really did expect that from the 2 parts of the egg , both would remain great friends . Alas 1 down.

ps: Its your birthday 2 days from now , I know i wont be 'allowed' to wish you so heres wishing you a happy birthday .

Will always love you,

Thanks & Regards,

Shrayas

iRreplaceable.

I've always had a secret dream. Something that iHavent shared with anyone. Something not even the closest of friends know. Thats because iThought there was still more time. But it so turns out that sometimes even though you think you have time , it is stolen right royally from your hands.

This secret dream that iHave i'm going to share today.

This dream is one that iHave had ever since iWas a kid.

But now, its one of those dreams that iAm forced to leave behind.

Why ?

Simply because 6 weeks isn't enough time for me to meet Steve Jobs.

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There have always been people that iHave looked up to, simply because iBelieve in the fact that no matter how good you are , there is always ONE person who is better than you are .

He has always held a place in my heart.

iWanted to meet him, and tell him how he's influenced me to make my presentations better ..
iWanted to meet him, and tell him how i've learnt part of how to speak merely by listening to his talks ..
iWanted to meet him, and tell him, that iConsider him a true genius of the world.

But iCant. Why?

Simply because 6 weeks isn't enough time for me to meet Steve Jobs.

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He is one person who has changed the world .
He is one person who almost made me drop out of college (yea dad, sorry. iWanted to.)
He is one person who redefined presentations
He is one person who mastered the art of talking.
He is one person who will create a void in the world.

and definitely in me.

What would you do if you knew that your bio clock would stop ticking in 6 weeks .

Would you look at it like 1/8th of a year
Would you look at it like a month and 2 weeks ?
or would you look at it like 42 days ?

Why would it matter how you look at it ? You aren't going to get any more time . You aren't going to change anything .

Why look at the 6 weeks that you have left rather than looking back at the n years that you have lived.

Because as he himself said .. you NEED to look back in order to connect the dots.

One thing that we all really need to understand is that you're really really REALLY insignificant.

But

what you do whilst being insignificant, matters . It did to Him .

He has a messianic complex, and its contagious. he believed that he has to do something to the world.

6 weeks later we'll be able to see that .

iToo , have a messianic complex . iWant to make a difference. iNeed to be noticed . iWill do it.

iWanted to tell this to Him.

But iCant. Why ?

Simply because 6 weeks isn't enough time for me to meet Steve Jobs.

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iAm pissed.
iAm irritated.
iAm not in the right state
iDidnt want this time to come so soon
iDont want him to give up.
iStill think he has a lot of people to change.
iThink "stevenotes" should be incorporated in the dictionary
iWant to cry.

Why ?

Simply because 6 weeks isn't enough time for me to meet Steve Jobs.

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iGot this news a couple of days back and it truly did bring tears to my eyes.
iDo hope this is a rumour.
iDo hope that he releases an iPhone 10.

Because iWant to tell him,

Hey Steve,
There are a lot more things in this world that require an "i" beside their name.
There are a lot more things in this world that are worth a "stevenote"

There is always "one more thing" that deserves you.

But heres me being selfish,
iHope you read this and know:
iHave always wanted to meet you.
iWant to meet you...


Please dont ruin a kid's dream.
Please dont give me just 6 weeks to meet you.
Please dont give up.

~
Shrayas.

30 Fupees

Photography is an art . Good photography makes people go wow . Great photography makes it to the media . The best photography , simply makes you cry .

But just the love for photography can make you something greater than all that

It can unite.
It can make friends.
It can take 2 people and make them realize that they have about 5000 things in common .

This Post , is dedicated to that person who made me shatter most of my rules.

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When do you trust a person ?

I started trusting you without knowing . I started trusting you when you said nice-to-meet-you ?

But why ? I think i'd like to relate this to something from the harry potter movies . Priori Incantatem.

I think that we .. we were just made to be friends . We just lived somewhere else all this while .

I've really had nice time ever since the bus and i think i owe most of it to all the 200+ texts , the multitasking and you .

......

I think thats the wierd thing about friends . You end up being close to them without even knowing that you are close to them and one sulky saturday you end up waiting for them to get up just so that the texting spree can begin .

I think thats the wierd thing about friends . They just become friends without you telling them that they are your friends .

I think thats the wierd thing about friends . You know that they will just stick

I think thats the wierd thing about friends . You can tell them something that you havent even brought yourself to believe yet .

I think thats the wierd thing about friends . 2:30 doesnt seem late.

I think thats the wierd thing about friends . They're the best .

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So , Understand that when i tell you , you're a friend and ,

We are going to be the same for a really long time.

Every day we're going to keep incrementing the #5000 counter.

There are going to be way more ftories to share and

Honestly it-was-nice-meeting-you so just hear me out,

And please throw them away.

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30 Fupees isn't a lot of money . But its a lot of pain .

MMXL

As i sit here in this room , music in my ear , distraction free editor in front of me i can feel thousands of people thanking god for a new year from tomorrow , even thousands more making resolutions and even more partying .. Yet why do i sit here ?

For me, a new year means nothing . Its just another day . Does it mean anything ? The earth just spinning around its own axis , and just revolving around the sun - Night turning into Day , Day turning into Night .

What i'm more concerned is, in this abstract new year what am i going to do that will make me sit 1 year from now and write something better, and tell all ya'll that i've actually done something.

Let me pause .

Let me look back .

What've i done ?

Gotten a Camera ?

Gotten into SAP ?

Graduated with high scores ?

Got a mac ?

Do you think any of that matters when you sit back and think about what you actually have done ?

Materialism. Hmf!

I think i'mma ready for more .

Yes i have a Canon Rebel XSI, Yes i'm in SAP , Yes I got high scores, Yes i have a mac .

But with all this .. is there something i can do ? Is there something that i can do differently that will make people notice me ? Is there something that i can do, to make a difference ?

I want to . And i must.

This is not a resolution that i'm going to make cause i dont believe in planning for the future yet since i dont see a necessity in doing so right now (sorry dad.)

But this is more of a Resolve.

This is more of a mindset.

This is more of becoming more me.

This is the path that i need to follow . This is the path not formed. This is the path i'm sure that my dad would like me take simple because there is no path . I need to make one.

And this i dont do for my dad or for any other soul in this world. This i do for myself. I need this . I need to break free. I need to carve a name for myself .

Yea i suck .

I know i do .

I know few languages

I know somethings more

I know that i can do a few things better than the rest of the people around me

But now i want to put those few things to a test.

Can i actually do something with all of things that i can do better ?

I know i can .

I know i will .

If not ACTUALLY do something, i know that i will make an attempt.

Because once you start making a path for yourself .. people will eventually start helping you . Your family, your friends. Yes they matter simply because i cant do this on my own . I need people to stand beside me . I dont want a leader, I dont want to lead . Its a pain.

So i say to you all here . And at 9:10 PM on the 31st December 2010

I SUCK . I WILL BECOME BETTER .

Watch for a post in 1 year .

But thats all for this year .

Before i get leaving ,

I love you dad , mom .

and I love you guys (you all know who you are)

and dad , i always stick to what i said, i'm sorry if its harsh but not many people matter to me in the world.

You all are my world and i'm happy with it .

Fuck off 2010 .

You started making the new me . 2011 will add on to that .

3 days of pause and 2 stories to tell

its not often that somedays mean something. Its not often that someone inspires you so much that you think of what you're currently doing.

Today, was one such non-often day. And so was yesterday and the day before just that i didnt realize it.

on 11th i have my exam , exam? not really .. more like exams! 2 of them to be precise but here i am, so bloody happy and writing this experience of mine when some peoples will argue that i should just shut the laptop and go study, Meh. Buzz off (those) peoples.

It all started off with a requirement. Like anything else, like any software program, like any thing that requires some work. The requirement was a video that had to be made. For a promotional purpose. And i, was chosen to be the lead and being frank, at first i wasn't very excited.

And in came 'someone' and his team. For all intents and purposes, let us just call him - Mr. M. He prposed an idea that took me aback and that 'first-not-being-excited' me was completely replaced by 'second-excited-and-nothing-more' me. For security reasons (i never thought that i'd ever say stuff like this :P) i cannot disclose the video or the idea.

But what i'm going to tell you is more that just about a video or an idea. Its what they call a 'life story'

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Before that. In codetalk, you saw a passion of mine. There is one more that i haven't spoken about - Media - Photography, videography, graphic designing and things on those same lines. Now i'm saying all this so easily because the 'life story' is something that makes all these passions of mine smaller than ever.

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Coming back. 3 days of shooting with Mr. M, as awesome as they were wasn't even as close to awesome as those 20 minutes in the luxury of the Honda Civic. He runs a video production company in Bangalore and is one of the most successful corporate film makers and in my view, is just plain vanilla awesome!

With him, he had 2 stories to tell me . And i, was just rethinking everything by the time he finished. I hope it is not copyright problems Mr. M but i am going to tell them these 2 stories.

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Story #1

How dedicated do you think you are ? How much do you BELIEVE you can achieve ? How much do you think you've already achieved ? How much do you think that you've achieved that you're proud of . If you're reading this, then the answer to all those questions is - NOTHING.

Mr. M has had this company for over 20 odd years and 10 years ago , along came a night watchman from an agency . Regular old night watchman putting pegs, chasing dogs, knowing no englist, going to sleep.

But 10 years later today . He stands to be the backbone of Mr. M's company.
And 10 years later today . He was appraised by his boss as "It would fall without him ya"
And 10 years later today . He was dedicated enough 10 years ago to bother as to what was happening inside the place he was watchman-ing and not just care about the night.
And 10 years later today . He can converse with the clients in pure english and handle things by himself.
And 10 years later today . A man who used to probably walk/bus in to work, has bought himself a bike that he can use.
And 10 years later today . An ex-night-watchman, nay a professional video editor takes care of his brothers studies and has got his sister married.

And i ask you once again 10 seconds after you've read all that

"have you done anything that is significant?"

think about it.

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Story #2

He started off with a video library renting out tapes that he went up to Delhi to buy.

He moved in to videographing birthdays and weddings

He started off a little by little and moved into the professional way of doing things

He has done linear editing with 2 tape reels and editing MANUALLY.

He has done graphics with "4" colours, yes not 4k or 4B or 4M colours , just FOUR.

He is one of the most renounced corporate film makers now.

He was with me for the past 3 days.

He is Mr. M

There is no limit to what i learnt over these 3 days . There is no limit to what i will be learning more from you .

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I'm afraid i have to say that he tipped my interests 51% to 49% in favour of Media over Programming.

Lets see if that still stays by me or someone else comes by me to make that a 50% 50% like how it was till the civic ride.

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I'd just like to say Kudos to you Mr. M and thanks for everything.

It was a pleasure shooting with you and learning from you .

Mr. M, i salute thy !

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